What is the hardest part of a big project: getting the energy to begin, finding the time to work on it, or feeling down that it's over?
I discovered the Blogher sight through a YouTube friend and joined on November 6, 2015. I thought, awesome, what a great way for me to get in the habit of writing every day. I loved that there are prompts for topics to write on the days that I have a bit of writer's block. Day two after starting the project I totally didn't create a post. Now I will blame it on the fact that I started on a Friday, and forgot all about my obligation to myself after the weekend. It's not really a good excuse, because I do remember yesterday telling myself to blog, I just conveniently didn’t.
Thank goodness I remembered today. The topic prompt for this day is quite apropos. I'm sure you can see which issue of the three I have problems with. Yep, the second, is the closest to my getting projects done. I start things but consistency, focus, and completing started projects are my problems with projects. Oh, I could use the excuse that I can’t find the time, but the time isn't really the main problem. Staying focused to the end is. I'm just lazy.
I don't know what the laziness stems from. Sometimes it is because of fear of failure. Sometimes it comes from lack of excitement for the project. Many times I function on mood, and if the mood isn't right, I don't write.
I wonder about other want to be writers. I wonder what holds them back from success they know they can achieve if they just do the deed on a daily basis. Could part of it be fear of success? With success at doing something well, then come more projects, and projects that started out fun become work, and therefore the joy wanes.
There has to be a reason. I hoped accountability was a good enough reason, but in this case if I don’t write, no one cares. I only fail myself, and I’ve been doing that for years. The truth of it is, I need praise and encouragement. I need it a little more than others. Perhaps it’s a great lack of confidence in my own ability. I’m like a shy kid constantly needing a push when I stop or even back up behind the wall the parent. Being a single woman and not part of any support groups of people that share my dream, I don’t have that push I need.
I know I am not alone in this. I guarantee if you look at any person successful in what they do, they have at least one person that pushed them to their greatness. Even if they didn’t know that there was that one person driving them, they were there. It could be an enemy or it could be a friend but there was that continual, in your face push to greatness. When you look at celebrities, entertainers and such, they have a team of people, yes men I call them that give them the praise and encouragement. They have many that depend on their success to feed their families. There is a drive to success that is more than the individual person. That’s what I so need. I know for a fact that it is that which keeps me from forging ahead on any consistent basis with any personal project such as my career as a successful writer.